By Emmeline Bisiikwa, Uganda:
I try to run, to hide
But I end up with you anywhere.
Is there a life where I get away safe?
Or is it my fate to end up here
Losing myself as you domesticate me
I wasn’t meant to be tamed,
And yet you think am a wild fire
That needs putting out.
He says he can’t keep away
That I draw him in with each new day
He’s holding me back
I want to fly high
Away from expectations.
I want to be free to be me.
He says he never knew someone like me
That everyone paled in comparison
I kind of like being on a pedestal
While he comes to pay homage to me,
Rather- the image of me.
The things he worships aren’t truly me
It’s all the things I can’t let myself be.
Too opinionated to be happy
Too headstrong to let him lead
He hates my independence
Says I can never let myself be happy.
I hate never being good enough
Always having to change to fit in his palms
Maybe I just want to be everything me
And have that accepted for a change.
I think it scares him,
How I am always intense.
How I need to be reassured,
And held tight right before I sleep.
And yet any other time I push him away
And don’t let him take care of me.
I think he misunderstands me,
The only thing wild about me is my emotions.