A letter to Diana (continued)

A letter to Diana (continued)

By Namuli Batuuka:

Looking back at senior 2, I can proudly say that was my best year in high school. I performed exceptionally well throughout the school year. Auntie was more than happy and she knew that mother was now smiling down at me. Even though I was happy with my grades, I missed you dearly. I would secretly look at you religiously reading a novel during night prep and I wished we could giggle about the story after we had both read it. I missed you terribly!

However, our paths diverged even more. I watched you make friends with girls we did not like. I saw you become more outgoing and adventurous. It's like you broke out of your shell of shyness and naivety and got acquainted with more boys. I heard from the grapevine of your many love escapades over the holidays and wondered if those guys measured up to our ideal guy. My punishment was that I could only watch and hear from the sidelines, and never know the truth.

Four years of high school ended with only a “hi” greeting going between us. We were always awkward in the presence of each other because I didn’t give you a reason why we couldn’t be friends again. Even so, I remember you being a smart and beautiful girl with ambition. You loved the arts and loved good arguments and I was sure that you would make a good lawyer one day. I envied you because you were naturally bright, you never had your head bent in books all the time, yet you performed well. After those 4 years we parted without a goodbye. Not knowing what the future held, we so eagerly awaited.

You went to Trinity College Nabbingo for your A’levels, and I proceeded to Seeta High School. I was proud to hear that you consistently topped your class. Your exceptional academic performance guaranteed you a full government scholarship at the University. I was happy for you. Meanwhile, I toiled with my pure science combination and more than once wondered whether I was pursuing the right career.

I heard you traditionally married before campus started and had a baby. I can't resist asking, “How did that happen? How do I connect the dots?” Did he really rival the Apollo in the novels? Is he bewitched by your beauty and charm and brains? Does he treat you right? I know I am the last person who should be a bit concerned about your life but even as our lives went in different directions, I thought we still had one thing that we shared. Ambition used to be our common ground. Don’t get me wrong, marriage and children are a blessing, an absolutely beautiful thing, but don’t they have their own time? Was our plan to first advance our careers and be super independent women all a fantasy like those many romance novels we read?

Now, you have 2 toddlers with twins on the way before we even finish University. I can’t help wondering how you are coping with all that. I admire you for managing all those four and I bet you still kick ass in college. I will probably never know your story because I waived that right as soon as I ended our friendship. I have heard friends giving their versions of what happened to you but I wish I could hear it right from your lips, I am sure I would understand. I am sorry for wanting to know more than I deserve, but more so, I am sorry for not telling you how much you inspired me and how much I believe in you. I only hope our paths can cross one more time, so you can hear my sincere apology and I, your remarkable journey.

Eunice

Founder and Editor in Chief of the Readers Cafe Africa

Comments (3)

  • lorna okeng

    Perfectly laid!!!!

    • namuli

      Thank you kipro-Aki Bua. Did you read part 1?

  • Roland Byaruhanga

    I like this Denise, more power to you!

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