The Apprentice: On the edge of Oblivion or Adventure?

The Apprentice: On the edge of Oblivion or Adventure?

By Kizzy Katawonga

I'm scared of what I'm about to do and the repercussions but I know I have to do it. I have to walk my talk.I have to prove to myself and others that I'm not all hat and no cow. If I don't live by my values and principles, why should I expect anyone to do the same?

I have to do this because my life depends on it.

No longer will I settle for being less than I am and doing things that are not imbued with passion and enthusiasm. No longer will I go out every day and not make a dent in the universe for my Father.

For too long I have spent each day, beating my head against the invisible wall of indecision and fear that has kept me from doing the things I'm most passionate about, the things that matter and that make a difference in other people's lives.

Stuck in the rat race, doing work that I loathe and persisting because it pays the bills. This with great toiling yet often never on time or ever enough.

As the year ended, my conscious weighed heavily on me. It asked “to what end will you continue living like this? You live each day in misery and grumbling because you aren't being true to yourself. And it's destroying you, eating away at that which makes you, you”

I couldn't ignore the voice any more.

So I am calling it quits on a business I started merely a year ago to do things I didn't really care for or even believe in. I sold out to my fears of lack and obligation and started something I had no intention of seeing through.

I have spent the year as a fraud and I refuse to be one for a minute longer. Nay. I must be true to who God has called me to be.

I have to launch out into the deep wide ocean of purpose that God set out for me before the creation of even the heavens. I must be a true Apprentice and follow in the footsteps of my Master.Was he not a carpenter for the first part of His life and then left it all behind to fulfill his destiny?

The time has come for me now. As the saying goes, there's no time like the present.

So here I am, standing on the precipice, wondering what awaits me on the other side? Oblivion or Adventure? Ruin or Fortune? Failure or Success?

I'm not afraid any more. I choose faith…

Founder and Editor in Chief of the Readers Cafe Africa

Comment (1)

  • Sarah N Nsiime

    Sure, sure making this kind of decision sometimes feels like taking a leap into the dark; Most of us have come to this place at some point in life. And is it scary!! So like you rightly put it, choose faith not fear.

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