Series, The Apprentice

The Apprentice: Afraid of the world…

By Kizzy Katawonga

This is Beneath Your Dignity, you were created to house the glory of God.

This has to be one of the most profound statements I've ever heard. Recent events have gotten me thinking more about its meaning as it applies to my personal experience with life.

A bit of background.

I'm buying a new car for my family. For the longest time we've desired to get an SUV because of the appalling road conditions in our humble city Kampala. Actually, it's getting worse due to the consistent tropical rains we've been having for the last three months.

It so happens that our home is on a slope. So all the water drains down passed our house into the depths of the valley below. Ordinarily this isn't a bad thing however, due to a lot of construction and heavy trucks, the roads are becoming quite impassable. So yes, we need an SUV, it's not some pre-Madonna middle class snobbish desire to be seen.

Secondly, we love to travel and road trips in this country absolutely require a 4×4. My wife's home village requires you to cross mountains and the rift valley at some point. And no, the roads aren't tarmacked for a great deal of that journey.

The challenge is that we don't have that much money to work with and given the dynamics of our car market the price of most SUV's is through the roof. I figured it would be smart to go for a non-toyota brand. After my pleasant experience with my Mitsubishi I figured I'd get one at a giveaway price.

Now it's said that God has a really interesting sense of humor. I failed miserably in my search and was almost calling it quits when on one day, while speaking to my broker he asked me if I would be interested in driving a Range Rover instead.

My first instinct was to scream out in doubt. “How can I afford to drive a range rover? The world's best Luxury SUV? I can't. It's not possible. What will people say? What will people think? Why are you even bringing this up anyway?”

Well it turns out, used Range Rovers that are pre 2000 are dirt cheap mainly because everyone's afraid of the running costs and perception that comes with it and as my broker pointed out, it wouldn't be too much of a stretch after what I'd been spending on my old Mitsubishi.

And now to the moral of the story; I realized that the reason I was full of doubt was because I didn't think I deserved to drive such a renown car. I was afraid of what everyone would say about me. Some would say I'm wealthy and start grouping and stalking me. Others would say I'm a thief or child born with a silver spoon and spurn me. I repeat, I was afraid of what everyone would say.

Isn't that the way life goes for most of us. We have opportunities to do great things, be great people but we're so afraid of what everyone else is going to say or think about us. We let that hold us back and the result is we live beneath our God given dignity. We compromise and end up living miserable lives of people-pleasing instead of God-pleasing. We cast aside our dreams and ideas for the sake of fitting in, conforming to those around us. We don't want to make others uncomfortable because we are living our fullest potential and they aren't.

Marriane Williamson puts this best in her book, A Return to Love.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world.There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory ofGod that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear,Our presence automatically liberates others.

I couldn't have said it better. So today I challenge us all to look closely at our own lives and start living to our true potential, living out our dreams and forget all the nay-sayers and people-pleasers.

Blaze your trail and set the world ablaze. As for me, I'm about to sign the papers on that Range Rover. If you catch me looking down at you in traffic, it's nothing personal. I'm just living to my dignity and hopefully it will allow you to do the same.


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